is there anybody out there?

I've had a rough few days- major stress and drama going on in my life, another serious battle with the anxiety monster, and- with impeccable timing, as usual, my computer's master hard drive decided to give up the ghost at the worst possible moment. It's the third hard drive I've killed in the past five years, so by this time I've learned to be obsessive about backing everything up on a regular basis, and the only thing I lost in the process was my temper.

I'm so glad you thought of me, my anonymous friend- you're never far from my thoughts, either.

I'm on my way back up out of the hole I was in, though, I think. I'm getting extremely bored with these mood swings. I go from being on top of the world, straight down to the depths of hell, and back up again at least once a week.

No more word from my sister in law, who was supposed to have left my brother on Monday. I'll bet any money that she stayed with him, and that's why she hasn't written me. I don't like to think too much about the alternative- she always used to say that the only way my brother would let her go is if she were dead.

Hey you, out there in the cold
Getting lonely, getting old
Can you feel me?
Hey you, standing in the aisles
With itchy feet and fading smiles
Can you feel me?
Hey you, don’t help them to bury the light...
Don’t give in
without a fight.

Hey you, out there on your own
Sitting naked by the phone
Would you touch me?
Hey you, with you ear against the wall
Waiting for someone to call out
Would you touch me?
Hey you, would you help me to carry the stone?
Open your heart, I’m coming home...

But it was only fantasy.
The wall was too high,
As you can see.
No matter how she tried,
She could not break free.
And the worms ate into her brain.

Hey you, standing in the road
Always doing what you’re told,
Can you help me?
Hey you, out there beyond the wall,
Breaking bottles in the hall,
Can you help me?
Hey you, don’t tell me there’s no hope at all
Together we stand, divided we fall.