Valentine's

Just a short addendum to the previous entry.

Today is Valentine's Day. I had forgotten until just now. It might be best that way, because I am completely certain that, like every other holiday, it will be utterly ignored by the one who should be buying me flowers.

Last night he was angry becuase I wanted him to come to bed before he had much time to look at porn on his computer. I reminded him that many women would not tolerate his looking at porn at all, and that he should feel lucky that most nights he surfs the porn sites for hours without a word of complaint from me.

Often, I think that I would leave him if I had anywhere to go. He used to take the most beautiful pictures of me in erotic poses. Now that I am the mother of his child he does not have any interest in that. He would rather look at a million other anonymous women than pay attention to me.

"Do you think I know something you don't know
What do you want from me?
If I don't promise you the answers would you go
What do you want from me?
Should I stand out in the rain
Do you want me to make a daisy chain for you
I'm not the one you need...
What do you want from me?"