A letter to myself

Self,
Please stop and think about what you're doing. Please try to remember when you feel this passionate about anyone or anything, it always ends in disaster.

Remember the pain it will bring you. Remember the rainy winter days huddled next to the radiator, trying to console yourself by listening to his music while your soul shredded with every measure. Can't you remember how much that hurt?

Try to remember how much you lost, last time you let your heart lead your head. It's not worth the price you will pay. If we've learned nothing else, surely we've learned that!

You were so close to the edge last time. You were only saved from death by a miracle. You cannot count on a miracle if you go down this road again. You can only count on the fact that people will always disappoint you, no matter how hard you love them.

Is it worth it? It cannot be.

Why won't you listen to me? I can already see that you're not listening. It's too late, isn't it?

Sincerely,

Me